World’s best chinaman bowler Bradd Hogg reveals that he tried to commit suicide on wake from his retirements at International stage.
The left-arm spin bowler launched his autobiography – The Wrong’Un on Sunday. The former Australian cricketer gave details about his battle with depression and how he turned to heavy drinking . The spinner, in his book, explained about one terrible instance when he decided to commit suicide.
He wrote, “I parked my car at Port Beach and went for a walk. I’d stare at the sea and think, I could swim out to that groyne, and if I make it back fine. If I don’t make it back … well, hard luck.”
“I was prepared to let fate decide. I was in a really dark place. I did that Fremantle drive four times. And each time I thought about doing something really drastic,” he adds.
The left-arm spin bowler retired from the national team in 2008 in a vain attempt to save his ‘icy cold’ marriage to then-wife Andrea. He wrote, “It was more about contemplating what it would be like if I had decided to end it all. Nonetheless, it was frightening that I was having these negative thoughts on a regular basis.”
In the chapter titled ‘The Collapse’, the spinner confirmed that marital problems was the reason behind his shock retirement from cricket at the end of the 2007-08 summer. He mentioned that he started to cry uncontrollably while fielding during his seventh and final Test, against India in January 2008 at the Adelaide Oval.
The leg-spinner had made a comeback into the Australian Test side that summer after his debut in 1996 following the retirement of Shane Warne .
The left-arm spinner says that he stopped watching cricket for almost an year, while recalling a drunken episode at an ODI at the WACA in Perth, which ended in him sleeping in bushes as he walked home from the Raffles Hotel
Hogg returned to domestic cricket for the first Big Bash League in 2011-12 at the age of 40. Played for Perth Scorchers and ended up picking 13 wickets from 9 games at an economy of 5.61 and was 3rd on list of highest wicket tackers. He was selected in the Australian Twenty20 side less than three months later and also played T20 WC for Australia in 2013. Hogg, 45, will play for the Melbourne Renegades in this summer’s BBL.